If only..

If only I could choose not to know anything,
if only I wasn't so affected by our breakup,
if only I didn't put in so much for this relationship,
if only I tried harder to change,
if only I knew how to cherish you,
if only I didn't love you so much,
if only I choose to forget you,
if only I choose not to hold on anymore,
if only I never want you to come back,
I wouldn't have been hurt so deeply.
If only..

& my heart keeps breaking over & over again.
When will all this stop?
When will the day that I forget you come?
Do you still love me or do you not?
Are you still tired of being in a relationship?
Did you ever thought of giving me one more chance?
Please do know that I really need you, sigh..

I love you stil.